What are your fears? Really...what scares you? I know as believers we are to trust Jesus without reserve. But do we really? As for me, I know I don't. I'm full of all sorts of phobias and anxieties. Most of them are irrational, and all of them are for whatever reason deep set in me. I hate them. I wish I could just rip them out. But they are there. Why? Only God knows.
One thing I fear is my memory, which I've mentioned on here in previous posts. I also fear people, physical attacks, not being liked, bugs, various animals and other creatures, getting in lakes, oceans, and so on, and the list goes on and on. My current biggest fears involve what would happen if my wife and/ or daughter faced danger. I just don't know what I would do. I'm absolutely paralyzed by fear of any pain or death. People tell me I'd do the right thing, but I cannot honestly say I know that. My fear and selfishness run deeper than deep. I know this is by no means a good thing, but I also know myself too well, and how weak I am.
It's also impossible to ignore all the evils I see in this world, and think I will escape facing all these fears one day. Many don't believe much is coming. To them I say: You may be right, but pray to be prepared no matter what. I must say this to myself over and over. Because out of all my fears, I pray I fear being separated from God and going to hell the most.
We're going into the year 2013. Only god knows what's coming. And only He can heal us and replace our fears. I know this very well in my head. It's my heart that needs to catch up.
"Deliver us, Lord, we pray, from every evil, graciously grant peace in our days, that, by the help of your mercy, we may be always free from sin and safe from all distress, as we await the blessed hope and the coming of our Saviour, Jesus Christ."
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