I find myself wanting to do this more and more...not even sure if anyone is even enjoying these beside myself. Fact is, not keeping a journal probably hasn't helped my memory issues. So I'm hoping this can somewhat serve that purpose well. At least I won't get writer's cramp!
Today I'm thinkin about correcting others. I don't mean I'm thinkin about whom to correct specifically , nor what to say. What I mean is: When we do have to correct others, what is our motivation? Is it the right time and place? Have we sufficiently examined our own faults and where we are personally? Why am I so afraid to speak up when I should? Why am I fearful of others? Why do I feel embarrassed or ashamed about my faith? Come to think of it...why do I always feel not good enough...and/or entitled? You see...there are many thoughts that stem from thinkin about correction.
As far as motivation is concerned, we should always be of a loving mindset. We should be driven to look out for the other person...even at the risk of being rejected. But I'm often too afraid to say what needs to be said (I'm horribly intimidated by people, lack confidence and faith, and just plain fear people's reactions). Or I'm driven by my own false reasons and selfishness. The latter occurs more often in close personal settings (though definitely not exclusively)...while the former dominates me.
I found myself in a situation recently with someone I know and love very much. I found myself fearful of the person, and what I believed needed to be said. I waste too many opportunities to do what is right (either on my own, or in witnessing to others when I know I should). This case was getting heavy on my heart, and I knew I had to do something about it.
My friend was none too pleased with what I had to say, but for once in my life...I KNEW I did the right thing out of love. I didn't like the result. My friend didn't want to talk to me for a little while. And we honestly still haven't even talked this out yet. When we do finally address it, I pray it only helps us grow closer to each other and God. All I know right now, is that I was and am at peace over what I said, and why I said it. How I wish that was me all the time!
We all struggle. We all fall short of what we should do. We also all need those who care enough for our good...for our souls...to call us on to be better than we are right now. People who call us to be holy...or rather to strive to be closer to holiness than we were a moment before. We only have the moment at hand. No more are promised us. We all waste them. We all make poor choices. I pray that I stop wasting as much as I do...and I pray the same for you. I pray for our resolve to do what we must for ourselves...and what we should do for others. I pray that love...His love...is what drives us now...and for the rest of our lives.
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